Even though today was the last official day of classes, the realization that it is basically summer break has not hit me. Today in Arabic, I was struck by how different the last day of classes at college is compared to at high school. Unlike high school, it wasn't a big deal. There was no signing of yearbooks by people you hardly like ('Have a great summer and stay sweet!"...sound familiar?) and there was no release into the halls where people stuffed everything that had accumulated in their locker over the past 8 months into their overflowing backpack....there was no euphoric sense of summer and freedom. In fact it was very much the complete opposite....I hardly said goodbye to anyone and calmly walked out of the door back to my dorm. Maybe these feelings of freedom and relief haven't hit me yet because I do have one final left (as much of a joke as it is) or maybe it is because I'm not home yet....but I feel as if it is something deeper that I don't understand yet.
It hasn't hit me that I may not see some people from that class again as people graduate and leave to study abroad (I think you all know who I am talking about...)....it makes me sad. I feel as if I have started the formation of some potentially wonderful friendships that will inevitably disintegrate as distance and time pass.
I am in utter disbelief that I will be home within the next week trying to rekindle friendships that have been put on hold, with people who I used to be so close with, who now have lives I will never understand nor be a part of.
As strange and disconcerting as it will be to be home....I am excited for a couple summer projects that I have planned...hopefully this will help to lighten the mood of this heavy post. Here are some pictures of things that have inspired some of my summer projects:
Good luck exploring the infinite abyss,
Kyrstin
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